Friday, February 24, 2012

Day 54

Weigh in day! At 380.5lbs, I have officially lost 30lbs in under 60 days. I set an unofficial goal for myself on my birthday - I'd like to weigh 100lbs less on my 27th birthday than I did on my 26th. Seems doable. 100lbs in 365 days is about 2lbs a week, and that's an aggressive, but doable (I think) target.

I've had a great couple weeks and let go of some of my strictness for a few meals for special occasions and things like that. Christine's parents are in town this week and my friends are here next week, but after that, we've got a whole lot of nothing on the calendar for about a month, and I find myself looking forward to it. A lack of special occasions means maybe I can control my weekend eating a little bit better.

We're going out to lunch today to celebrate my birthday, and we're going to the Buffalo Wing Factory. I thought yesterday that if my weigh-in went well, maybe I'd have wings as a reward, but that seems kind of counter-intuitive. Wings are delicious, but I haven't really been craving them, so I think it'll probably be a salad of some variety for lunch instead.

They brought in breakfast at work today for our corporate meeting, and so there were pancakes, waffles, slices of french toast, sausage links, and bacon strips aplenty. I had a yogurt parfait and some scrambled eggs, so I felt pretty good about that. I couldn't possibly estimate the calories there, but I can say for certain that I could have done a whole lot worse.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Day 51

I had a great weekend and am currently working on having a great birthday. Work is interfering.

Food over the weekend was a mixed bag, unsurprisingly. On Saturday, Christine and I went out for dinner at a nice restaurant in the neighborhood where we were staying. I had white bean soup, pork loin with green beans and sweet potato gratin, and we split desserts - butterscotch creme brulee and bananas foster bread pudding. We also went out for dinner on Sunday with a big group. That dinner FELT excessive, but upon further review, really wasn't. Vegetables, chicken, a little beef, couscous, and a pastry thing which had nuts and chicken and eggs in it.

Also: birthday cake. That wasn't so good for me. But I had a single slice and then was done with it. No second, no thirds, no fourths. So that's pretty acceptable. Yesterday I sat around my apartment and enjoyed my day off. Unfortunately Christine had to work so I lived the bachelor life, eating yogurt and a protein shake for breakfast, a healthy choice for lunch, another protein shake and a bag of Voila! sweet and sour chicken for dinner.

Our friends Chad and Katie gave me a big bucket of protein powder for my birthday. It's a sad state of affairs in my life when I can tell you that I was really excited to get it. What has become of me?

Using that is considerably cheaper than the Trader Joe's Pure Protein shakes, but the nutrition isn't quite as good. Nevertheless, I'm excited to have it and to be able to quit spending $5/day on protein shakes. It's also friggin' delicious. Tastes like a peanut butter cup milkshake.

So, food for today:

One Syntha-6 Protein Shake
- 290 calories
- 40 from fat
- 30g protein

Two Chobani Greek Yogurts
- 280 calories
- 0 from fat
- 28g protein

Chick-fil-a Twelve Count Nuggets
- 400 calories
- 40g protein

Side Salad w/ Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing
- 125 calories
- 5g protein

Friday, February 17, 2012

Day 47

This morning's weigh in was bad. For the first time this year, I'm up a bit. Admittedly, I'm up .2lbs, which is one wet fart away from being even, but it still pisses me off. My body really wants to lose weight, and all I've got to do is not stop it. This week, I managed to stop it.

I'm not discouraged in any big way for a couple of reasons. One, I'm still down 27.3lbs. Two, it's .2lbs, and three, it's not like it was that much of a surprise. I didn't eat well last weekend and I wasn't as much of a zealot this week. Still, it's not something I'd like to repeat, so without further ado, may I re-introduce... the annoying task of recording everything I eat and the nutrition facts thereof!

Breakfast:
Two Chobani 6oz Yogurts (Black Cherry and Apple Cinnamon)
- 280 calories
- 0 from fat
- 28g protein

Morning Snack:
One Chocolate Pure Protein Shake
- 170 calories
- 10 from fat
- 35g protein

Lunch:
Chick-fil-a Twelve Count Nuggets
- 400 calories
- 40g protein

Side Salad w/ Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing
- 125 calories
- 5g protein

This part isn't particularly fun to write and I'm sure it doesn't make for the world's most interesting reading, but it's what I was doing when I was dropping weight by the bushel, so it's worth going back to.

Afternoon Snack:
EAS Myoplex Lite Protein Bar
- 190 calories
- 40 from fat
- 15g protein

Dinner:
Chick-fil-a Four Piece Chicken Strips
- 480 calories
- 46g protein

Side Salad w/ Fat Free Honey Mustard
- 125 calories
- 5g protein

Back to Chick-fil-a with Christine for dinner. I didn't order the strips, I ordered my standard nuggets, but I always eat the salad first and by the time I finished and found out that they got the order wrong, I didn't want to go return them, so I ate them. I didn't know at the time that I was looking at 80 more calories. But probably I'll live.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Day 46

Ugh. Today has been one of my dreaded 'hungry days'. Some days, no matter how much I eat, I'm just hungry. I hate these days, because I'm a big whiny baby when I'm hungry, and nobody likes a big whiny baby.

Two yogurts for breakfast, Chick-fil-a nuggets and a small side salad (which I totally didn't want, but greens are good) for lunch, and a protein bar already. I'm still pretty hungry.

Dad sent me a really interesting issue about plateauing, which makes a lot of good points, but two hit me especially. First, one week of not losing weight isn't really a plateau. Second, as often as not, you 'plateau' when you stop sticking to your plan and eat more. Hurrr, both of those make sense, and I've been guilty of both.

I'm not expecting a particularly good or bad weigh in tomorrow. My body has a great capacity to lose weight, but I also did really eat like hell on Sunday. The caramel apple and peanut butter bark were really good, and unlike so many meals I've had (like the fried chicken later that day), probably 'worth it' - but they certainly aren't going to reflect positively on the scale.

I'm thinking I'll probably be about even. That's OK for a week, but it's not a trend I'd really like to continue.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Day 45

Back at it today, and it feels pretty good. Two yogurts for breakfast, leftover taco casserole for lunch with some Ruffles Light potato chips, and I've got a protein bar and shake waiting for me this afternoon. 30lbs, here I come! Hopefully.

Off to dad's tonight for dinner and trains, both of which are always good. Busy day, sorry I don't have more to add for now.

Dad made turkey burgers and sauteed onions to go inside of pita pockets. Delicious and nutritious! He also had some Bolthouse Farms Yogurt Ranch dressing, which was waaaaaay better than regular ranch, as far as the nutrition goes, and surprisingly credible in the taste and texture department. This is a thing worth knowing.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Day 44

I lied yesterday. I totally did know what I was having for dinner, and it wasn't a Lean Cuisine. Christine and I went out yesterday to celebrate... well, certainly not Valentine's Day! We just celebrated that it was Monday. With flowers and roses and a night out. But not Valentine's Day! It was a surprise for Christine, so I didn't want to write about it here lest she check el bloggo.

We went to a restaurant called Mokomandy for dinner. After reading umpteen rave reviews for it, I thought it would be worth a try. It totally wasn't. It was all OK, but there was nothing special in the whole meal we ate, which was too bad. 

The meal itself was far from perfect from a nutritional standpoint, too. The restaurant was Korean and Cajun, but the different flavors weren't generally mixed - you could order bulgogi and fried green tomatoes... which we did. We also had fried (tempura) pickles and a 'wild boar bowl'. For dessert we had a spiced rum bread pudding. 

None of it was as good as it sounds. The best item we had was the bulgogi, but even that wasn't as good as you'd get at your average Korean BBQ place. So it was a disappointing meal mixed into a wonderful evening. Today I'm back in the saddle. Two yogurts for breakfast, Potbelly for lunch.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Day 43

Where to begin?

Well, I think I have a pretty well defined philosophy for my continuing diet. I've talked about this with my folks and with Christine, so it's not news, but I think it makes sense: I stay very tight to a very stringent diet during the week, and on the weekend, I do the best that I can.

Admittedly I came out of the gates very strong and stuck to a very tight diet on the weekends, and I'll do that when I can - but I had a lot of weekends to start the year where I didn't have much going on. When there's not much going on, you can pretty easily control your meals. But starting last weekend, here's my schedule:

Feb 5th - Super Bowl
Feb 11th and 12th - Atlantic city
Feb 19th - My birthday dinner
Feb 25th and 26th - Christine's parents are in town
March 3rd and 4th - The guys are in town

So it's just not practical to eat my standard meal on every weekend day for that whole period. Not only is it not practical, I just know that it's not going to happen, so if I get wrapped up in it and get mad at myself for 'cheating' I'm going to do myself more harm than good. So during the week, I can be a Food Nazi. It's not even that hard. During the weekend, I can control most of it, and just do my best when we go out to eat. And not snack. No snacking!

This past weekend was a bit of a mess. We had an amazing dinner Saturday night which certainly wasn't low-cal, and then had Panda Express, a caramel apple, a piece of peanut butter bark, and fried chicken yesterday. That looks so much worse when I write it down than it felt going into my body. Yikes.

The one thing I've been really bad at with diets in the past is letting myself make mistakes and then just getting on with it - so that's what I'm trying to do here. I was totally OK with having the big dinner on Saturday, but yesterday got a little bit out of control. Nothing for it except to get back to basics this week.

Protein shake and a 90 calorie Special-K bar for breakfast, Potbelly Big Wreck on Thin-cut wheat for lunch. I'll have another shake this afternoon and probably a Lean Cuisine or something for dinner, and just get back after it. I'd like to cross that 30lb mark sooner, rather than later.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Day 40

Sorry for the lack of updates - work has been bananas and I just haven't made the time to write, which stinks.

Today was a weigh in day, and although I was on Christine's scale, it can't be that far off of mine... and it said I was down 2.5 lbs! I don't have a picture, and I'm hesitant to officially record it because it's a different scale, but it's encouraging anyhow.

To have pigged out on Sunday and still lost weight is pretty heartening, but I'm not going to let it encourage me to just eat more and figure everything will be ok. This is the point I often get to in diets - do great, lose a bunch of weight, eat a little bit and still lose weight - where I figure that I'm golden and stop working for it. Once I do that, I start packing on the weight again. This time I'm serious, and I can't wait to be out of the 380s, hopefully for good.

A banana and a protein bar for breakfast and mid-morning snack, a Potbelly sandwich (Big Wreck, thin cut wheat) and Baked Lays for lunch, and who knows what for dinner.

Christine and I are headed to Atlantic City for the weekend, and it'll be a challenge to go there and not eat or drink, which is usually about 60% of what we do when we're on vacation. Gambling, ahoy!

Speaking of Christine - she's working so hard to lose weight and has done a great job. As of last weekend, she was down more than 10lbs. The eating on Sunday seemed to have a worse effect on her, and she's now up about 2lbs from where she was, which is of course really discouraging. So here's my public shout-out: You go, baby girl! You're doing great - don't let a shitty week get you down. Just keep eating right and you'll be fine. I love you.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Day 38

I was at Christine's last night and I don't have my sacred stack of yogurts - quelle horreur! So all I've had for breakfast is a protein shake, and it seems like an early lunch is in the cards. I can live with that, but dammit Chobani, I miss you!

Went out for lunch and had a cup of chili and a chicken caesar salad, so probably a little saltier than I'd have liked, but tasty and not bad.

Given the teeny-tiny breakfast that I had (and lack of a morning snack!) I was hungry when I got home, so I had my two Chobanis, which tided me over until dinner. I had a Lean Cuisine, which wasn't necessarily the best choice, but was tasty and easy. I'm pretty nervous about my weigh-in on Friday, we'll see what kind of impact the Sunday Funday Eating Extravaganza had.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Day 37

It's amazing how much better I feel when I don't eat like garbage. Yogurt for breakfast, tea, and water. Trying to get all that junk from this weekend out of my system.

I did splurge on Sunday and have some soda - and now I'm paying for it. I've got a delightful caffeine headache, which just reminds me why I'm not drinking so much of it anymore. I can't figure out how something that makes me gourd hurt as it leaves my system could really be good for me.

I realized around noon that I was hungry as the devil, and shortly thereafter realized why - I forgot to have my shake! That's no good.

We went to Potbelly for lunch, and I had a double-ham on thin cut wheat. It's been an adjustment, getting rid of condiments, but I find that I don't miss mayonnaise quite as badly when the sandwich is covered in Potbelly's hot peppers. I just think about my mouth being on fire instead.

Christine was at Trader Joe's last night and picked up whole wheat pizza dough and lowfat string cheese. We combined that with some tomato sauce, and made ourselves some pretty healthy pizza! 8 slices, 220 calories per slice, and damn if it wasn't tasty. I had three slices and didn't even feel bad about it. This was a really fun way to have something I adore (pizza!!!) and not feel nearly as bad about it as I often do. Prettttty good.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Day 36

So Christine and I experimented with cheating on our diets this weekend. Given that it was the Super Bowl, and we both felt overdue to indulge a bit, we had breakfast at IHOP on Saturday, and then had lots of snacks for the Super Bowl on Sunday night.

Breakfast on Saturday was fine - my pancakes were yummy and my bacon was delish, but I felt sluggish and bloated after the meal. All in all, I concluded, I wasn't sure it was worth the guilt. But I stayed excited for Sunday, because I was getting pizza and cheesy dip and cookie dough - basically one day's worth of exposure to all the stuff that put me in this hole in the first place.

I ate it, I ate lots of it, I enjoyed it, and then I felt like an absolute pile of shit. I couldn't sleep because I felt so weighed down and truly gross. This was an incredibly important lesson. In the future, on weekends when I feel like I really need to cheat, I'm going to get one or two things that I really want, and not take it as an opportunity to binge wholesale. Doing so didn't make me feel better, physically or mentally, and wasn't worth it in the least.

Back to my regularly scheduled programming - two yogurts for breakfast!

Pretty standard fare for the rest of the day. Potbelly sandwich for lunch, protein bar for a snack, and a lean cuisine for dinner. Easy peezy, lemon squeezy.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Day 33


That'll do, pig. That'll do. 25lbs, on the dot, in 32 days.

Breakfast: Two yogurts, as per usual.
Snack: Chocolate Pure Protein shake
Lunch: Leftover shepherd's pie (so good) and about an ounce of baked Ruffles (sour cream and cheddar flavor).

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Day 32

It's annoying to know that you've plateaued. I had this urge to hop on the scale this morning and maybe just not write anything about it here, but I've started this whole project in an effort to be transparent and keep myself honest.

I know it's a bad idea to keep weighing myself, and I'm not doing it anymore, but it's oddly tempting. The first pile of pounds came off so quickly and looking at the scale was such an encouragement that it's hard to lose that on a daily basis.

Food-wise, I'm not blogging every meal quite as strictly, but I'm eating all the same things. By now I know the calories in my shakes, yogurts, and protein bars by heart, and so a lot of the counting is done for me. I'm still having two yogurts for breakfast, one or two shakes and a protein bar throughout the day. For lunch and dinner, we've been eating things that are harder to simply count the calories on. But at some level, you just have to know that if you're eating chicken breast and vegetables, you're doing alright.

Breakfast was yogurt.

For lunch we went to Boston Market. I got turkey breast, mixed vegetables, and green beans. No cornbread, which broke my heart.

Christine made a really excellent Turkey Shepherd's Pie for dinner, and then it was time to hold my breath and wait for the weigh in Friday morning.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Day 31

Breakfast:

I had a pair of Fage yogurts for breakfast this morning. I was coming from Christine's apartment where I don't have my massive storehouse of Chobani, so I stopped at Trader Joe's and grabbed those suckers. They're still not better than Chobani, I don't care what anyone says.

- 260 calories
- 0 from fat
- 26g protein

I also didn't weigh myself. I won't be doing that until Friday.

I had leftover maple-pecan chicken for lunch, which was tasty but rubbery because I put it in the microwave, and a pair of protein shakes throughout the day for filler.

For dinner I had two small (but meaty) ham and cheese sandwiches at my folks' place. All in all, not a bad day. I had trouble sleeping and had the urge to midnight snack, which I really never have before, but I didn't indulge.